What is our role as women in this world? Is being a just a wife good enough? Do I have as much purpose as those business women accomplishing big goals everyday? I mean, my goal yesterday was to get my cabinets straightened out so I can easily get to my hair products and find a small amount of space for my husbands deodorant (Don't judge...I'm a hair dresser).
This week, our discussion was "It's tough being a woman in another woman's shadow". Ouch. We all like to think, "Oh no, not me. I am confident in who I am." So, why is it when I look on Instagram or Facebook and see everyone's bright pictures of their latest nail color or cute shoes, do I suddenly feel the urge to take a shopping trip to the nearest department store? I'm almost positive someone could post a picture of their garbage can, and if they photoshopped it enough, I'd be ready to jump in the car and go get my new, awesome garbage can. Where am I putting my identity? In what color my nails are or Who my Father is?
"One goal of our study is to let God heal our world-torn souls and make us experience His security in our reality"- Beth Moore
Thank goodness That Father is merciful. He knows my heart. He knows where I fall short. But He loves me so much anyways. He wants me to completely be satisfied in HIM. I am secure in Him. He never makes me feel inadequate. --Such confidence we have through Christ toward God. Not that we are adequate in ourselves to consider anything as coming from ourselves, but our adequacy is from God who also made us adequate as servants of a new covenant, not of the letter but of the Spirit; for the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life. 2 Corinthians 3: 4-6.
So what's MY purpose in this work-driven world? How do I answer when people say, "You don't work? What do you do then?". I'm still practicing that answer. It's definitely feels like a cut when people ask. I don't think they mean it in a bad way though. I'm so so blessed to be able to stay home, get together for bible study, and have dinner ready (most days) when Nick gets home. It didn't solve all my problems the moment I got to say I was a stay at home wife. You have to choose joy in all circumstances, which I am not the best at by any means. My purpose should be to find ways to serve God. I'm working on that servant's heart. It does not come naturally. I'm really selfish. Probably abnormally selfish. Marriage is showing me that for sure.
I hope you don't feel like you are living in another woman's shadow. That is not how God wants you to feel. Boast in the Lord! You are beautifully created by God. Have security in knowing you are HIS.
Victoria
